This feeling is killing me!

Why are you doing this to me?
I've tried my best to hate you
but looking at you I just melt..
I've pushed you away a million times
but somehow you still come back..
Though you have hurt me many times
My feeling for you never fades;
Its not everyday that i see and meet you
But this feelin in me is still strong
You're a thousand miles away but
the things you've said 2 me are here 2 stay
I thought i knew you well
but its tough 2 figure you out
You're just the craziest thing ive ever met
I can hate you so badly yet not,
I can want you so badly yet not,
Talkin to you always makes me feel better
You can calm me down in my worst situations
I sometimes wonder whether
the things you say 2 me are true
I want so badly 2 believe that you are fake
But there you are standing infront of me

On the other hand,

you are sweet and charming

attractive and caring

I want you in a special way

That you would find hard 2 accept

I always want you close 2 me

but i know when i make that decision

you will be gone

The things i share with you are true

The things i say 2 you i mean

I want you in that weird way

you will never understand

The things going on im my mind

I cant share with you

but whatever it is

I still L.O.V.E you!