Its Complicated

I've found that somebody and its you..

2009-06-17T09:18:00.000-07:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way
I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
Is it you? is it you? Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be this one I need?

2009 Holiday Turkey

2009-06-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

Before...

A big thing happened 2day bt im not gonna talk about it.

This is about my holiday in Turkey a.k.a Anatolia..so here goes...

Sonia is sucha sweetheart. She called me lyk a million times before we left, she spoke 2 my mom n sis n wished every1 a safe journey..the limo came 2 pick us up at 8.30p.m. sharp..it was a bumpy ride..anyway we reached d airport n we checked in our luggage...ryte after we went to top up our phones so dat we can wish every1 gudbye b4 leavin..we got 2 d departure hall by the aerotrain or wtv u call it..we had a light meal at burger king cuz we couldnt reli eat at home cuz we were so busy packing..our flight departure time was at 11.59p.m...we boarded the plane i sat wif my bro, my sis sat wif my aunt..n my mum and dad sat together..then well....take off..it was a 6 hour flight until our transit at dubai international airport...Dubai has a reli beautiful airport as well, its sumtin lyk ours..the transit was only 4 an hour and a half so there wasnt much we could do...we boarded the plane again an off to turkey..... I was so tired so i slept throughout the flight and also it was an airbus230 so it sucked cuz we had no entertainment onboard. The food sucked equally..nt tryin 2 critisize bt the food from the malaysian sector is reli bad..i puked when we landed in Dubai..Dubai sector wasnt so bad .

In Dubai one of my bro's frens called him n it cost rm5 per min for a call..n sms rm2

I Don't need fake you !

2009-05-04T20:14:00.000-07:00

You call urself part of us
but you are so different from us

maybe u dont realise

that some of the things you do

hurt us

You sometimes dont think b4 u talk

N u say things that are really rude

Im sure you are not that dumb

not to know what u r sayin

but we just ignore it

You dont think about the consequences

of your actions....

U talk as if ur really clean but in reality ur not

both ways either

U dont keep to your promises

n u try to fool people saying otherwise

It hurts for me when i do

so much for you

n in the end im treated like garbage

ive been advised so many times

not to trust you
cause ur not what you seem

You behave like an angel

but the truth is......

You cant even keep a secret

We trusted you.....

Now we're not gonna share anymore

N as for me....

thats the end of me being

the dumb person giving you everything

i thought u were one of us

n i really took care of you

but now ive seen your true colour

U know me well

I treat people the way they treat me

I know you take advantage of me sometimes

but i still took care of u

Im sorry but i have to say this is the end

Im not gonna be that dumb person anymore...

These tears i cry...

2009-05-02T00:24:00.000-07:00

I dunno wats goin on...but i hope it gets better
maybe i shouldn't be holdin on to this
but i can't let it go either
I have hope, faith and confidence that it will happen
maybe not now, but someday
but im afraid it will be to late
and no matter what happens
i would not be able to do anytin bout it
everyday i have to face this fake relationship in my life
which no one understands why but me
i have 2 face all these different views and opinions
I have made up my mind n i have made a decision
I know what to do...but i cant do dat now
Im just waiting for the right time
But even after i let it go...then what?
There's no point to it...it
makes no difference now...its all gone
so i rather just bare with it...
i know u dont understand why
but i know how much it will hurt if i do so
ive already tried once...n ive seen the effects
u were once just sum1 i knew
but now....i dunno y hating u jz makes me think of u
though i want to believe it will happen
i noe its neva gonna
cuz ive seen n i am seeing alot of things goin on
wat i see hurts...so i'll just stay away n pretend notin is goin on
everything i do, every song i hear, every person i talk 2
reminds me of u...

Though i try n try 2 walk away i know this crush aint goin away....

This feeling is killing me!

2009-04-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

Why are you doing this to me?
I've tried my best to hate you
but looking at you I just melt..
I've pushed you away a million times
but somehow you still come back..
Though you have hurt me many times
My feeling for you never fades;
Its not everyday that i see and meet you
But this feelin in me is still strong
You're a thousand miles away but
the things you've said 2 me are here 2 stay
I thought i knew you well
but its tough 2 figure you out
You're just the craziest thing ive ever met
I can hate you so badly yet not,
I can want you so badly yet not,
Talkin to you always makes me feel better
You can calm me down in my worst situations
I sometimes wonder whether
the things you say 2 me are true
I want so badly 2 believe that you are fake
But there you are standing infront of me

On the other hand,

you are sweet and charming

attractive and caring

I want you in a special way

That you would find hard 2 accept

I always want you close 2 me

but i know when i make that decision

you will be gone

The things i share with you are true

The things i say 2 you i mean

I want you in that weird way

you will never understand

The things going on im my mind

I cant share with you

but whatever it is

I still L.O.V.E you!